To Be Free..     
My Q.Time
with God.... June 20th 2017                                                                                   


Papa God I come to seek first..  To listen.. Not to ask anything but just to be with you.
As I sat and listen, which is really hard to do by the way, I looked around our beautiful backyard, it's not yet how I want it to look but it sure has come so far from where it started.  So much time and energy and money has gone into it.  Still so much more that needs to be done. I get distracted  planning my next project...hmm.. maybe outside is not a good place to have my Q time...no..inside is just as bad..we bought a fixer upper..not from Chip & Joanne..long before them...:)....I would get just as distracted inside. So I might as well stay outside as long as I can and enjoy my beautiful backyard fixer upper!  
I think..hmmm...  maybe there's something to that...alot of time and energy has been poured into me and I'm not quiet where I want to be..but I sure am a lot further along from where I used to be...thank God for that!...Whew.. I was a tough one for sure..
I hear God ask me.." What do you really want"..yes emphasis on really...,Isn't it interesting that He asked me what I wanted after I told Him I come to seek and not ask??...I think that's pretty awesome of Him...
So I list off some things..Peace(who doesn't want that one)..to be debt free..(again).. time for my creative work, as in a real design business,... time to work, serve in Women's ministry, which I am the Women's director at church..imagine that huh..lol.
I open up and tell God I feel like I'm under someones thumb again...bondage.....we have a lot of debt..and I HATE it!!!.. 
I know where all of this coming from now..it all stems from my past(we all have)...ya see, things happened to me as a child and a teenager. I felt powerless all of my life because of it.. and I feel powerless again because I feel like my time and energy is held hostage with all my other responsibilities, and I'm not complaining,..but I feel like I'm not living MY life..not being and doing what He created me to do...makes sense?...and I can't seem to do what I really desire to do...which my Q time was Psalm 20 this morning... I changed it all to me, mine, my...I personalized it..which it is!....  Read it if you get a chance..
After talking with Him..I felt better..of course... 
In closing... what I really want is to be free...He said.."FREEDOM"
And as christian for sometimes now..he gave me the truth....2nd Corn 3:17...Now the Lord is Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is , there is freedom.  So now I live this day knowing He heard me and He's working everything out for me.
I need Him..I need Him everyday in every circumstance..in every way..I need Him.. 

Do you need Him too?

Thanks for reading today. I hope you will be blessed, have a laugh or even a good cry. Either way its all good. Much love to ya! 
R.Reed

Reflections.....

My Q. Time...June 19, 2017

 Sitting under the awning of my work shed...listening to the birds...enjoying the rain..hanging out with Papa God...Living My Beautifully Messy Life!
I'm sitting and just being still and observing...observing what's around me... the smell of a wet dog, Magnum, who's patiently sitting at my feet waiting for me to throw his ball... the ripples in the pool..where are they going..what is their purpose?.... The thump of a rain drop as it lands on the bottom of a metal tub, now filled and spilling over.. The sound of thunder as it rolls in the heavens... these are some of the things I'm enjoying today.

It looks a bit dreary...but I like that..maybe it matches my mood.. The wind is slightly blowing and fall colored leaves fall...Isn't it a bit early for that?...The gathered droplets of rain gathered along a string of lights waiting patiently for its turn to be filled and gracefully fall to the ground watering the earth and refreshing the land...if only life was so simple.  I don't know why I'm so reflective. Maybe because sooooo much as changed lately...  life around me...My daughter is now a married women...where has the time gone? It seems as yesterday she a month old and we were on a family vacation..hiking in Arkansas..met an older couple who told us "She grows up fast"..enjoy your time..of course we just thanked them and gave that "yeah whatever" look to each other" "what do they know"...well if I could meet them again I would say " I wish I would've listen to you...you were right"... time did go by so fast when I think about it my head spins and I literally get dizzy...but that could be my sinus actin up..lol..
And..if that isn't enough..my son graduated and is leaving for college in less than a month..its all bit much for a momma.. I miss him already...crazy huh?
 I do get to see my daughter almost everyday tho..and she text almost every night before she goes to be and we exchange our sweet little lovely nite nites...
So much to reflect on and ponder.
I'm sharing because I want you to stop and reflect and ponder ..stop long enough to pay attention to what's around you because what is around you is your life..so enjoy it all..

Thanks for reading today. I hope you will be blessed, have a laugh or even a good cry. Either way its all good. 
Much love to ya! R.Reed